wow, seriously?!!

OK, this week has been bad. BAAAAAAAD. I ate 7 peanut butter cups and two butterfingers yesterday, and probably the same number of peanut butter cups, kitkats, butterfingers, and skittles today. Plus, half a bag of spicy doritos. Good god I feel like I want to crap out of my mouth. Either I'm bulking up for a cold-ass winter, or my "Aunt Flo" is coming en force pretty damn soon. Either way, weigh in tomorrow is gonna have to be sans clothes.

(the real) Week 7 Results: +1.8lbs

OK, so apparently I'm miscounting my weeks. This is week 7, and this week, I went up 1.8 lbs. I'm not surprised - I did a lot of eating out - four days in a row fir dinners to be exact. I gotta get better about being able to be social without overstuffing myself.

Doh. Weight. Sucks. Wish I had a flabuum cleaner to suck off the flab. suckay suckay!

Week 7 Results: -3.8!!

I'm down to 241.8! My goal this next week is to hopefully get to 240 even. OR, even better, 239.9. That would make me happy, just to break the 230's. I haven't been 230 since 2001 when I was living in Ohio, and that was using diet pills.

Well, a bigger goal would be to make making better decisions a priority so that I don't have to think about it making better decisions as much and I can let a larger part of my mind go on to other things. It's not exactly fun thinking about food and planning about food 20-30 times a day every day.

Keep your fingers crossed for me, and please, "ride my ass" this week - I really want this, and I accept any constructive pushing, challenging, encouraging, or whatever to help me keep the flame under my hiney.

Week 6 Weigh In Results: +2.6

What a week...it was a long weekend, and I got sick Sunday and am still feeling it today on Wednesday. I ate over my points every day, and blasted through my weekly flex points in the first three days.

It's just been frustrating, and I'm a little tired about thinking about food and points and fitness. On the other hand, I'm frustrated that I'm frustrated after only a month of joining. I know there's a back and forth struggle, and that I'm in the throes of it, but I just don't like how it feels to be on the lower end of it.

The good thing? I have a great support network. Taunia's a great motivator and constant reminder of "staying in the game", and Brian and my brother are great sideline supporters - there when I need them to be, but not too involved. So, onward and upward!

Hoyyyyyyy

What a busy day today! I know I'm getting old when the weight doesn't come off as easily, and I get excited over fashionable shoes that are designed for comfort. HAH! Check 'em out: www.dansko.com. Expensive as hell, but apparently worth it. They've got an outlet online. Apparently the sizes run smalll fyi, but they've got a store in Boston.

Anyway, what the hell is this, the shoe blog?! :)

No, it's the aging blog. And the feeling lazy blog. And the kick the weight off my ass blog. And the give me 1 point turkey meatballs blog.

OK I am seriously digressing and I should probably just end it here. These last couple have days have been crazy hectic and I haven't found the energy to shop when I had the time, and hadn't found the time to shop when I had the energy. Hence, lots of buying of lunch and eating to please myself more than eating healthy. I did have a chocolate chip tollhouse cookie bar today that was GODDAMN GOOD! And those pumkin muffins two nights ago, those were GOODDAMN GOOD! Maybe this is the goodamn good blog!

ANYWAY, tomorrow's mission: Shop. And Walk. In that order. Goodnite from the shop and walk blog.

A thought

haha, not just one thought, OK!

I just have to say, I would LOOOOOOVE if getting to a healthy lifestyle didn't take so much of my brain. I mean, seriously, figuring out healthy things to eat is the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last thing I think about when I go to bed. It's sort of like having to think about how to sit EVERY time before I can. What angle to stick my butt out at. How far down I squat before I lean back. How much weight I am putting on each foot, do I do anything with my hands, do I look behind me, are my feet close together or fall apart. Next to each other or skewed. Well, whatever, you get my point. Having to consciously think about the entire process of doing something that you usually do on auto pilot is just draining. draaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiining. Drain drain go away, suck me down and drain away.

Week 5 Weigh In Results: -2.8 lbs

So yay, I lost 2.8 pounds this past week, putting me at 242.8 - my lowest weight yet on WW (and my lowest weight in over four years)! Before the summer, I lasted 13 weeks on WW, and at the end, I was at 247. In week 5, I was at 248. So, I'm feeling great this time around not only because I've been more successful, but because I definitely feel a difference in my eating habits now compared to last time I tried WW.

I don't like being so busy because I think that's what bunged up these last two days. I didn't plan meals, and I didn't grocery shop. I ran out of all the great stuff I bought last week (how'd it go so fast?!!), so I'm trying to figure out new shopping and preparation patterns. But hey, I'm still making progress, and I know that if I do plan, I'm satisfied with my meals, and it's very easy to stay within my points.

So Taunia and I had a great Chinese cheat dinner tonite. I went a bit over my available points. I think I had 25 left. I ate around 40. OOPS!! But, I'm going to get back on the bandwagon starting tomorrow, because it feels TOO DAMN GOOD to be at my lightest in probably at least FOUR YEARS!! I realized this just now, and even tho it's my lightest by only a pound or so (last time on WW I got to 243 before jumping back up to 247), it's still my lightest - in such a long goddamn time! yay!

Oops

Well, I kinda blew my streak in terms of not using any flex points (extra weekly points) this week. I had seven tonite. And I didn't do any activity today. Boo!

I knew it all day too...it was just so busy, I was working from 3-9pm, and I had a doctors appt in the morning, then drove an hour each to and from to have lunch w/ Brian.

Oog. It was swimming around my head all day, but what it came down to, was that I craved sweets, so I had Cocoa puffs. Then I ate some cheese puffs. OK, a lot of cheese puffs :) and they were good!

I'm bummed because I broke my four day streak, but I'm not too bummed because I know that if I had eaten 7 over last night, it wouldn't have been a problem because of the activity points. So, to me, it all evens out, it's just that activity points only count for the specific day they're gotten.

Cheers! I'm going out to a friend's house for dinner tomorrow, so I'm hoping I'll be able to hang tight. Here's to hoping!

Great Weekend!

I suppose the title says it all, but I feel it's been a nice couple of days - I had unexpected plans but made reasonable choices. I am most proud of my level of activity and my initiative in being and keeping active.

FRIDAY: 4 ACTIVITY POINTS
I wrote about it already, but I was so excited to break the cycle by stopping at the pond on my way home to walk it. I learned I need to bring my sneakers, because work shoes stink for long, brisk walks; but I did it instead of reasoning my way out. I felt great afterwards both physically, and mentally - because I (finally) broke this barrier (a barrier, I might add, that psyched me out all last year as well).

I also did grocery shopping later that night, which I counted as 1 activity point. While I don't count points for minor things like walking to and from my car at work/home, I do count the other activities (like grocery shopping) where it is out of my daily routine. Might as well be rewarded for being active!

SATURDAY: 3 ACTIVITY POINTS
Today was great for several reasons. First (not related to WW), Brian and I took my grandmother out for lunch. She had a stroke three years ago and lives in a nursing home. She eats pureed food and sleeps for the bulk of each day. My parents and I took her out last week for her birthday, and I thought it would be nice to take her out while the weather's still nice. Traditional Chinese food is healthy, and that's what we had. Tripe, salty soybean soup, Chinese squash, vegetarian goose, and my favorite, a hot pot of vegetable broth, rice noodles, napa, tofu, and pork. It was a 15.5 point meal for me, and worth every bite. We found quite a few little bugs in the soup after we had all had a bowl, so that, of course, impacted how much we ate.

After this lunch, Brian and I were feeling a bit nauseus, mostly because of discovering the bugs, so we stopped at Fanueil Hall on the way home, and got some delish sushi and green bubble tea (SOOOO good there), then 5 mini cookies each to top it off. Very fulfilling. 7 points.

Then came dinner: we went out with another couple to TGI Fridays. This is my other great moment. Before dinner, I only had 5 points left. I knew this would not be enough for dinner. So I did two things: (1) I went for a brisk 35 minute walk before we left to get some activity points, and (2) I went online to check out the TGIF menu, picked a dish, and calculated its points. I ordered the Jack Daniels chicken which comes with green beans and mashed potatos. I figured that 1 chicken breast (2.5 oz) and half the mashed potatos (3/4 cup) was only 5.5 points, so I treated myself to homemade pumpkin pie when I got back home (2 points for 1/16 slice). Fabu.

SUNDAY: 15 ACTIVITY POINTS!!!
Today was the monster of all activity points! And I wasn't even trying...first, Brian asked if I wanted to go for a walk this morning. This was great, because I was telling him how great I felt Friday after walking and he said he really wanted to be more active. SO, we went on a brisk 45 minute walk - and even jogged for a tiny bit of it! 3.5 activity points. I had had the rest of my TGIF leftovers before this. When we got back, I chilled for a bit, then decided that I wanted to put our entertainment center together and clean up the living room.

So I had a little lunch (rotini, marinara, and these GREAT turkey meatballs from Trader Joe's that are 1pt each and massive!) which was only 4.5 points, then worked on cleaning and assembling and moving the entertainment center and everything in it. One hour, 3.5 activity points. Then, I started re-arranging the rest of the stuff in the living room. After we consolidated stuff, Bri helped me move the extra bookshelves downstairs, then I moved the filing cabinets and speakers (six of them which are all 5-5.5ft tall and heavy as ass) to look nice. Another hour, 3.5 activity points.

I was hungry at this point, and CRAVING chocolate. We didn't have any in the house (thank god), but we did have a "Chocolate Orgasm" brownie from Rosie's bakery, which is a very fudgy and deadly delicious brownie. I knew the points would be crazy. Based on similar brownies, I estimated it would be about 15 points. I cut the brownie in thirds, and had a little less than half of one, which only came out to 2 points, so I felt great!

Brian left to go to rehearsal (he's in a band), and I was just sitting around watching TV. I decided that since I had 15 points left, and had 10.5 more activity points to play with, I was going to splurge for dinner. I decided to have a pork chop, red potatos with butter, and green beans. Half a pork chop, four small red potatos, 1 tbsp of low fat butter spread, and green beans still only came out to 9 points!

After 20 minutes or so, it was 7pm and I was feeling restless. So, I decided to do the laundry because I didn't want to have to do it tomorrow since I reserved it for doing work (even tho we have the day off from school). SO, I loaded up three heaping baskets of stinky clothes into the car and did laundry for two hours. I only counted the 1hr 20min that I was actually moving around and folding clothes, but that still came out to 4.5 activity points!

SO, by this time, I still had 4.5 ponts left to use. Bri and I went to CVS to get some random things, and I decided my second splurge of the night was going to be on chocolate: I got a twix. Two twix bars and a 1/2 cup skim milk later, I was down 8 points, and had only used 3.5 of my 15 activity points.

What a great weekend!